Sunday, 10 January 2016

21 Lessons from 2015... (No BS)





Ya ok… It’s finally 2016 which is crazy because it’s been 10 years since I left high school and I’m really blown away by how quick time has went. Like just the other day we left high school, with dreams the size of Jupiter and a hunger for life that would make the whole show on Ripley’s believe it or not. It’s funny how life has moved. It’s funny how we all went our separate ways and some converged again. I look at Facebook and it’s all pretty much the same thing; marriages and children all around, I guess we are finally here now. I guess life sometimes forces us to calm down and I guess I’m happy for everyone. There is no right or wrong way of doing life, I guess you’re going to do it whether you like it or not and that’s a cute way of looking at it but anyway. 

So 2015 was a real year for me, apart from what happened which was a lot, it was more the lessons that I forcefully had to master that stand out. I made a note of them in December but figured I’d get to writing it in January when the “new year, new me” bullshit eased its way out to free up some energy so this can actually have an impact to somebody out there… 

These are just some lessons I mastered that I hope does something for someone out there and helps them maybe accelerate their process. People say to me now that I should write less and get this shit in a book but it’s ok. There’s plenty where this comes from and nobody has ever gotten poorer by giving. I’m living my purpose now and part of that Is to teach because when I’m gone I’ll be gone, I know these things I say today will help people in the future that haven’t been born yet and that’s how you do shit. 

So ya let’s get into this, don’t know how many points will be here but I shall let my mind and fingers guide me so lets jump in, might be a lil long so take your time…

1.       The Ground (Being down and out).


So let’s start with a bang… 

Shit. What is down and out? Is it when you have no cent/penny to your name or is it when you don’t have hope? I saw the ground in all its forms last year. I was penniless, with a colossal dream and everything basically fell apart in my face and I didn’t see what was going to happen. I couldn’t believe all the bullshit I went through. But it was there where I learnt that all great changes are preceded by chaos. You’re never down and out when you’re broke, you’re only down and out when you lose hope and can’t imagine how things could be better than the current situation. And as long as you’re alive, there’s always a way. 

2.       You haven’t exhausted all opportunities



The ground is a place where you’re forced to evaluate everything. Where how badly what you want something is tested. It is at that stage where you have two options and two options only. To be a bitch and walk away and make your dream defeat you and laugh at you for being stupid enough to believe it was possible or to decide fuck it, I WANT THIS! FUCK WHAT I HAVE TO GO THROUGH. It was there where I learnt that when you stop focusing on the problem, you open yourself to the solution because of your belief in yourself and in the fact that you wouldn’t have been brought there unless the was a way to overcome the obstacle. It was here where I learnt that the problem isn’t the problem, but your attitude towards it. When you think it’s over, it actually isn’t, there’s always a way. 


3.       Your Response



The truth is that shit will happen to you in life. But like I said above, it’s your attitude towards what happens that will determine the outcome, not the circumstance itself. This is where you realize that it’s not what happens to you but more how you choose to respond to it that matters. Everything else we subconsciously create, only about 5% is the shit that blindsides us. The rest, well we create ourselves & I’m now convinced that people put themselves in the situations they find themselves in, not God and not fate. Stop blaming everyone and start checking yourself for where you are in life.

4.       Adaptation




Aha now this is some shit that was hard. Now as I said, you choose how you respond to whatever happens to you, but after that you also need to learn to adapt. You see the circumstance was never there to deter you, but to prepare you. The process has to make you ready because what you go through is preparing you for what you asked for. So once again you put yourself in the mess. I read a book from the 18th century by some crazy ass weird dude but there was a point in the book where he said: “The seeming disappointments of life, are Gods own appointments.” When disappointments arise, you must be aware that this was all your doing and you need to adapt quickly and accordingly knowing that you are being led by your most dominant thoughts. And it’s all about trusting that feeling. Remember that your job is to level up and grow in order to meet the future version of yourself you’ve imagined. So expect hardships. 

5.       Time




I had an article before this entitled “working with time.” What I was saying in that is that everything will come to you when you’re ready for it. One cannot control time, or make it work faster. All you can do is work with it because time itself is an illusion which is only real based on our perception of it. The rest is just fluff. Allowing yourself to get frustrated at how slow things happen will stress you out for no reason. The best thing I know now is that time doesn’t give a fuck about me and my dreams and life has been better ever since. Stop complaining and just keep going. 


6.       Patience




When you accept that time doesn’t give a fuck, you learn what is called “patience.” Every person who wants to be a master at anything must master the art of patience. When patience starts becoming a lesson you teach, you know you’ve accepted that time doesn’t give a fuck. Patience has taught me that everything I wanted before, I wasn’t ready for and that everything will come to me if I accept the fact that it’s not about getting there but going there because the journey will always teach you something about the destination.  So master patience and you master yourself. 


7.       The Past




It is true we are where we are because of our past. I don’t know how people like to talk shit about how the past doesn’t affect them and that whatever happened is done and over. I don’t get this need to be strong and macho all the time. There are something’s people did to me in my past that still affect me till this day; hell they even affect some of my decisions and as strong as I’d like to act, I also know that there is no weakness in being vulnerable. Maybe some of you guys are super human and have amnesia pills to make you forget shit but I guess I wasn’t lucky. The lesson I derive however is that I’m grateful for my past, all of it, good and bad. It is only when accept that you must be grateful for your life that you allow your past and present version of yourself to understand each other. When they mix and come to an agreement, the future becomes godly. Don’t try deny your past, but just accept it and laugh about it because you can’t change it. 

8.       People




This one is gold haha… fuck! People hey? I hate people I’ve accepted. People are the most dangerous thing man. I’m glad at this young stage of my life, I’ve learnt how to read and judge people around me and I’m also not afraid to cut ties and get away from people that can add negativity in my life. Look! You need to assess the people you allow into your life out of 10 and be honest with what value they bring. People will come with bullshit and that will affect your life if you aren’t woke. Be selfish and unapologetic about your time and energy. People will act shady, they'll change in front of you especially because you’ve dedicated yourself to improvement and you want to win at life. People who believed in you will change towards you when you start to win seriously and people who didn’t believe in you will start believing in you. It pays to notice these changes. It’s funny because Ceteris Paribus, the only thing that’s variable in this instance is just your improvent and movement towards you. Its real, so STAY WOKE! 

9.       The Opposite Sex




Ya… Well ima be real, like the book of Proverbs 4:23 says: “Above everything else, guard the affections of your heart; the emotional attachments you make determine the course of your life.”

Be extremely careful about who you choose to be with. Ya sure you can’t control when you fall for and how you fall, but you can control how you act and adapt to shit. People like to assume just because you fall for someone or like someone, you need to date them. I don’t care what people say, that’s a dangerous and weak way of looking at it. A person comes with a whole entire life to you and you gotta be very aware of all this. I know so many people that will be focused on something, get into a relationship and I see focus go out the window. Where your energy goes so too do your actions. People like to act like it’s part of fate and what not but I’ve seen, I got further when I was alone, and I’d rather keep my heart intact for someone when I know I’ve found myself and have created my happiness, than to whore my heart out to everyone I sleep with or like. I don’t just date anyone and I’m extremely selfish with my emotions because in the life game, emotions will fuck you up because they are at times childish. 

I’m not saying do what I do. I’m saying just stay woke and only allow yourself to act on emotions when you are happy with your life, yourself and when you know that the other person has done the same and can take you further than what you can take yourself. That way you won’t have to make stupid excuses people make when relationships end and they’ve wasted years of their lives. And yes I’ve been hurt before so now I’m WOKE!!! Haha


10.   Friends and family. 






Aha… Friendship. 

If you want to know who your true friends are, go broke, lose everything, lose all you can do for people and lose your spark, then those that remain and still fuck with you for your company, when you can do nothing for them, they are your friends. See when everything is taken away, the simplicity of our humanity shines through and if you can identify and stick with that then you know. Until then, 2015 taught me who my real friends are and who’s going to be with me forever. This applies to family too. Saw so many people turn their backs on us man. It was unbelievable to say the least but that’s what happened. Blood and friendship is overrated. It’s all about the people that just want to be around you when you have nothing, they aren’t friends or family, they are fucken soul mates and that’s what I fuck with. Once again STAY WOKE!! 

11.   Disappointments 




In terms of disappointments, they will happen, from life and from people. From life, it’s all a matter of responding and adapting. From people it’s a lil trickier, but it’s all in understanding that if someone loves or hates you, it was never anything you did, but something within themselves that they project towards you. If people disappoint you, it was never your issue. I used to spend so much time wondering what I did to people and what not but I see that it was never about me. It was never my issue. They say that the weather doesn’t concern itself with the criticism of people, and so that makes you realize that people will be people. It’s not your issue. Once again, check the people around you.


12.   Haters 



Haters will see you walking on water and say it’s because you can’t swim

Kills me every time… When you gain haters, and very few people support you, it’s all because you’ve become something that they wish they were. You always gotta be aware what people praise; most of the time people will praise mediocrity simply because it’s comfortable and relatable. When you rise, you fuck with the order of things. But it is at this stage where you must accept that you need to be your own cheerleader and not strive for the approvals. It is at this stage where you need to learn to want less and less likes for your epic posts on social media. This reversal of wants makes you realize that you’re rising. Fuck people and their addiction to average.. When you rise, you’ll either inspire people or get them to hate you. No in between. But remember, you are your own cheerleader, you don’t look down on anyone and you’re open to helping anyone that humbles themselves enough to ask for help. The rest of the people well, the longer they ask for help, the more their pride keeps them there and as much as they don’t fuck with you, they will watch… 


13.   Giving




People will ask me what the secret to success is. DJ Khaled has the Keys, but I got the juice! The secret to success is giving. Let me tell you, nobody has ever gotten poorer by giving. The laws of nature are fixed and cannot be changed by any person. Giving opens you up to prosperity. I learnt to give without expecting anything back. I also learnt to give quickly because he that gives quickly gives twice. Money, time, these articles and wisdom, I’ve given and I’ve sat here and seen shit come back to me. You see I’m writing this even though I don’t have to because I already know this, but if you’re reading this and it touches you and alters you in a positive way, I’ve helped the universe with what you asked of it and because of that the law says I’m supposed to be rewarded. I’m not surprised that the greatest breakthrough I’ve had has always been tied to giving. Start giving. Trust me!


14.   Success




Now in terms of success, I’ve already said that the secret is in giving. But why? Giving releases you from the things that hold you back. The more money you give, the less money becomes an issue that holds you back. The more time you give, the less time you’re afraid of losing and wasting. See success isn’t money; money is a result of success. Success is nothing but a choice and a feeling followed by persistent and consistent action towards and definite desire of one’s choice. So before anything manifests in reality, It is first a feeling of success within you that nobody can understand and the 5 senses still have to learn to create. So success is not the outcome, but the starting point. Everything else is just mere manifestation. In other words what happens is just reality trying to explain the feeling you had in 5 senses. It’s so simple I can’t believe it took me so long to figure this out but that was some real shit I just wrote just now!! 


15.   Money





Money well… I learnt that when you chase your purpose, you no longer have to chase your provision. The trick is to lose your fear of not having money, that will allow money to have less power of you and it will begin to chase you. I’ve become enlightened now and so money isn’t something I care about anymore, instead it worries itself about me now. I know that all money is, is economic energy that we use for our own uses, and so I’ve come to realize that money is a wonderful slave but a terrible master. Million or Billion is all relative to the value you create. And so being rich or poor isn’t a bank account, but a state of mind and a modus operandi. Do not chase success or money, but instead chase to be more valuable and you’ll flip the money protocols that society has forced you to abide by and you’ll open yourself up to abundance. First you learn, and then you drop the “L”. So I know now that riches, abundance and wealth are my birthright because everything in nature operates in abundance and so I decided to get the memo. Simple. 


16.   Focus /Mentality




Based on what I said above, the truth is that you’ll always live life according to the quality of your thoughts. You cannot trick this law. It’s all about mentality. People will call me greedy for wanting an epic life but when people see greed I see abundance. Why? Because greed's initial assumption is limitation of resources, and so to better myself, I must make someone worse off. Abundance assumes no limitation and so my mentality of the matter shifts. I’ve learnt that there is no lack of wealth in the world, just a lack of people who understand it and admit to themselves that they want it. My mentality, is sadly not limitation, I’d rather be poor than to not be rich because once again abundance is my birthright. I can create heaven here and it’s as simple as that. But it’s once again a matter of focus and mentality. This is why you must guard your thoughts at all costs; the magic is in the simplicity of all things. The difference between a 3rd world and 1st world country isn’t infrastructure or economy but mentality. That’s all. Change your mentality, you change your outcome. 


17.   The Process



They say that things you want will always come to you when you’re ready. When the process has finished its work with you, the gatekeepers of your wildest dreams have to move out the way. The process was all the lessons that you had to learn to be able to create and contain what you had chosen with your imagination. The grander the vision, the more difficult the process because the value of a mineral is always in direct proportion to the intensity of its refinement process.  All you gotta do is fall in love with your process and trust the fact that you are being refined and perfected for your chosen vision. 


18.   The Moment 





The day was the 1st of December 2015 and we had to go pick up the bottles as they were finally done. I sat there and realized that all the components required after 3/ 4 years were now here and it was all a matter of putting them together now. All I did that day was meet my future self.  When all you’ve ever wanted finally makes an appearance in the 5 senses you can’t help but burst into tears because you know what you went through. But now looking back, I see that the product always existed, the only thing was that I had to level up to meet it at its level. If I got it too early, I would’ve squandered it badly. The moment itself is priceless and I’ll forever be grateful for that. We welcome Lohocla™, the world’s first Anti Hangover Shooter that is also been clinically proven to improve motor skills, cognitive ability and co-ordination. YAAAASSSS!! From the mind to reality, fuck the word impossible. Make an pre-order at sales@Swazzinno.com





19.   Belief




We are all gods with amnesia. What separates us from other animals on this planet is that we are the only humanoid species to exist here which means we are consciousness. This also means that we can be in control of our consciousness and thus become masters of our reality and universe. You see the supreme creator/ Master/God created the universe with a set of rules and programs that force it to abide to consciousness. When they said “Let us make man in our image” they said we are gods. The God gene is the imagination in us, the body is the expression of the soul in this dimension but the prerequisite for operating as a god i.e. unlocking the power of the imagination, is nothing but belief. It’s not about what you want, but about how much of what you want you believe is possible. Success for me was unlocking the belief in myself that says I can do and have whatever I want because I believe in myself enough to go after. So when I want something, I start off by saying thank you because I already know it’s mine, I don’t even doubt myself. They’ll call it arrogance but I trust my dopeness. Self belief!


20.   Happiness and love

 
The ultimate outcome of life is to live with happiness and love or their inverses. We trouble ourselves when we try to mix both. You’re either going to be a carrier of light or a bringer of darkness; anything in between is fluff and you become whatever you choose to feed. Happiness is created, it is not found. I’m in love with myself and my life and all that’s around me and I know I’m a warrior of light now. Whatever happens from this point I am not surprised about. I’m open to a lot of things now because I have mastered myself and regained my godliness and tapped into what is my birthright. I’m free and that’s as good as it gets. On a journey and it feels fucken amazing! Never look for happiness outside of yourself, create it within then you’ll see that it was never about what happens outside that makes you happy, but more about your understanding of it from within. If you inner language is happiness, you’ll interpret everything outside as happiness and create that and vice versa.
Maybe I might fall in love this year hahaha!




21.   Authenticity




I left the most important lesson for last. This is by far the biggest thing I learnt. You will know that you’re walking in your purpose when you no longer betray yourself. Authenticity is the greatest achievement because when you’re authentic, you’ve tapped into your true energy and you’ve become and are what you chose to be when you came here and that is your power. This is a point in your life where you no longer seek anything on the outside to approve or add to you. You no longer do anything you don’t want to and you don’t allow yourself to be in situations that fuck with you. That’s real shit and what comes after is also real. 

I know me now and I know my shit. I’m in control of my reality and am grateful for every moment. I know where I’m going. I plan to die empty and not old. I don’t see the point of being here for longer than what I need to because I’m in tune of myself. I’m merely here to share my gifts with the world, I’ve accepted my place in nature and I’m happy with who I’ve become. Extremely proud of me and my journey and I’m excited about the future and more importantly the things I’ll do and the people I'll meet and get touched by. It’s been a journey but I absorb it all and open to my highest potential. Fear no longer has any hold on me and I promise to give you real shit till the day I breathe my last breath. To all those that hurt me or I hurt, I forgive you and I hope I am also forgiven but if I’m not forgiven, it’s ok, I can no longer be contained by that, because it's petty. It doesn’t hurt me, but only hurts you, sorry.

Be real. Teach. Give. Love. Smile. Share. Live.

Fuck fame, Fuck money, Fuck fake shit… 2016 let’s go!!!! 


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Sunday, 22 November 2015

Being proud of you…






I recently read this powerful quote which went: 

One day it just clicks… You realize what’s important and what isn’t. You learn to care less about what other people think of you and more about what you think of yourself. You realize how far you’ve come and you remember when you thought things were such a mess that they’d never recover. And then you smile. You smile because you are truly proud of yourself and the person you’ve fought to become.

I read this and it didn’t register immediately as most things do sometimes. I guess there is an element of gestation that kinda goes into things sinking in but hey. I recently gave my very first TED Talk and I must say; it was the greatest experience of my life. I had prepared for the talk for 3 months and had never been so thoroughly prepared for something like I was for that talk. My talk was entitled “You are an idea worth spreading” and I guess I won’t go into detail with it because it will be on the TED global website come January. I was so nervous yet so excited because I had been waiting for this moment in my life for years. I had one mission; to slay. I wanted to give a mind fucking talk and I hope I did that. 



Everyone was so happy and proud of me and I saw that I really didn’t understand what a big deal it was because often you only see things from your perspective. You never know how big or small the things you do are from the outside because you’re simply just doing it. People will see you riding a lion and think “Omg he’s riding a lion, he’s so cool!!” Yet you’re thinking “How the fuck did I get on this lion? I better keep still and hope it doesn’t notice me and decide it’s hungry” hahaha! 

Anyway, it’s been a couple of days since the talk and it only hit me now what an epic moment that was for me. It was magical, especially when my name was called up and I hit the stage and said my first words which were “OK…” It was like something told me “This is your moment now so slay.” And I obviously had to reply. 





 Fucking EPIC!!! 

For me what stands out was that all the things people had said to me didn’t mean much to me until I approved it all to myself. I was grateful for the words and the love but I see that it was only when I began being proud of me did it matter and did it all sink in. I’ve learnt how to be the only person whose approval I seek and the only person whose validation I want. 

For so long in my life I went on allowing everything and everyone else to approve me and clap for me to a point where I maybe became addicted to it, I don’t know. It felt cool to be top student in your grade, copping up subject trophies and having everyone label you smart or whatever back then but I see now that was possibly the most dangerous thing I ever allowed but I also understand now that I didn’t know any better. From the moment we’ve been born it seems there was always someone close we had to impress. Our parents, friends, loved ones and the list goes on. I had to see the darkside of society to realize that the same hands that they use to clap for you are the same hands they use to slap you, directly and indirectly. The same mouth they use to say how proud they are of you is the same mouth they use to say how disappointed they are of you. And the same body they use to hug you is the same body they use to turn your back on you when you’re at your lowest. It’s a double edged sword this human thing. 

I see now that I’ve gained such a clarity of who I am and my place in this experience called life and I really don’t know where people find themselves as they are reading this but ima be all kinds of real for a moment because I’m no longer afraid of me, my past, my light and especially my darkness, they all make me me… I’ll out in 5 titles. 



1. Life




In terms of life I see I’ve gained clarity in terms of how it unfolds. I see now that life isn’t what happens to you, life is what happens because of you. Sure there is 5% of life we really can’t control but other 95% of our lives I assure you are 100% because of us. You are where you are right now because of all the thoughts and actions that have led you up to this moment in life where you are reading this. Whether you love or hate your life or situation is all really because of you. Your paradigm determines your result and a paradigm is simply just a multitude of habits, you change your habits, you change your paradigm and you change your results. 

I had to lose everything I once held dear to realize that I didn’t really need them in my life to realize just how much pain something’s just bring to me. It was only when I lost my fear of death did I gain my love of life. Life will happen to you sure, and we can’t control that, but what we can do is control how we respond to it. You can choose to have something kill you, or you can choose to learn from it and grow. It’s all about your point of reference and the richness of your knowledge in yourself. 

I laugh about it all now because I see that life is really what we agree it is. What the fuck is real and what isn’t? It’s only what we perceive as being real or not I mean?!! Hahaha it’s just an experience we’re all just going through hey…

2. Friendships & Family



In terms of friends & family, I’ve accepted we’re all family under the sky, it just so happened that we look different and can’t occupy the same space. This is not that "we are one" bullshit nobody seems to ever will understand but I see that everyone is your family if you think about it. You can go from being strangers, to being best of friends, to being married and to having babies in a blink of an eye. It’s all really about where you pay attention that determines who your friends and family are. We hold the blood thing so high not realizing that at sometimes we might give a fuck or not give a fuck and that’s ok. 

I’ve seen that some people will only be there as long as their need of you is sustained. The moment that leaves, all of a sudden the friendship and family thing just falls away. I’ve learnt that it’s ok for friendship and family bonds to die. I am not bound to them and am not obligated to them. It’s simple, whoever puts effort into me and I vice versa are my family. And that’s just how easy it is. I don’t allow myself to be held down and controlled by Earthly definitions. We tend to sometimes care too much about people who don’t give a shit about us sometimes and we feel we’re so obligated to that. Na. This is your life. You must decide. In terms of my friendships, I don’t fuck with people who bring negativity into my life and people who move around in a loop of the same problems and refuse to change their situations as if they define them. See some people don’t know what life could be without chaos. They truly believe that they must spend their lives putting out fires daily. I’m not saying that this is wrong or right, but what I am saying is that I DON’T FUCK WITH THAT… And it’s my right. Some people might, but I don’t and it’s simple hahaha! I also don’t fuck with people who don’t understand the concept of loyalty and are afraid to be vulnerable. If you can’t be authentic then what are you doing around me?? Come now. 

3. People



This one is simple… Not everyone is going to like you, accept that now. Your job is to make sure that the 40% of people who like you; you work to make them love you but let go of the rest. They are committed to hating to you and disliking you. It’s ok. 

4. Love and Relationships



This is the part I think I’ve learnt the most in… My clarity here is often misunderstood but I’ll take this part to try explain to those who committed too understanding me. So look, love is an emotion. It’s an emotion we feel for people, our pets and the list goes on. I don’t think we’ve evolved enough to fully comprehend it yet but what we know and can agree on is that it’s real. It’s most real when we feel the romantic form of love. That kind of life is the most powerful force of beauty simply because of the amount of destruction it can cause. Law of inverses. You can’t fully embrace an entity if you can’t mentally accept its inverse. 

I’ve seen that in my past relationships, I was just one fucked up human being man. I guess I used girls to get some approval and some validation and I guess I kept at it because somehow the girls seemed to allow me. I see now that I was a broken person man. Scared of life, I was insecure and I had no clue about me or my purpose here. I was cold, dark, twisted and manipulative. I went into relationships and love with high expectations and beliefs that I had no clue of origin. I guess maybe it was the movies and shit, I don’t know. It was about monogamy, faithfulness and all those definitions. I often ask myself do we love for real or do we love by definition and ideas created for us because why is it that we’ve defined identifiers of love and shit. Haha I don’t expect an answer because even I don’t have one But I see now that love just like any other experience is something you must go into, to listen to learn and to grow. 

Maybe it was just me but my relationships were fireworks and borderline psychotic and we both always had such high expectations and beliefs regarding the other person’s role which we expected them to simply know. I look back now and I can understand why some of my exes hate my guts today and don’t even want to speak to me simply because ya I was fucked up man. I don’t think anybody deserves to have another human being be overrun by love if that person hasn’t found themselves and goes into love without expectation. Ladies don’t allow a dude into your life who just hasn’t figured himself out yet because he will project those insecurities on you and this is for guys too. I’m not here to act like I know better, but I see that something like love is dangerous. We have too many broken people dating other broken people who are afraid of being alone and so as result move from relationship to relationship without dealing with themselves. It seems that people hate themselves and come to you expecting you to love them and those are the most dangerous kinds of human.

I had to take a chill pill for a couple of years to really redevelop me because me is all ill have until I die. I had to really look back at my choices and understand them and maybe I’m ready to love again but I see I had to find me and really understand what I was dealing with. It’s an experience and I hold nothing against my exes, I still love them and honestly can say I’m done with the bitterness because I’ve grown beyond the definitions the pain had built for me. And since love is an experience, one must understand that it comes and also goes. One must never try waste energy to keep it together. Let it have its natural course. Nothing is immortal and one must realize that it’s ok. It really is ok hey haha… 

5. Me…



In terms of me; I am in the most beautiful place I could’ve ever imagined man. I am where I should be and I can feel it daily. Happiness is created, it is not found. Because it is created, it has to be created for oneself by oneself, there’s no other way to do it. I look at my life and my choices like I said above, and I understand them. We really can’t look past the choices we don’t understand. So I understand them now. I’m a happy person and because of that I guess success just seems to chase me now. I no longer seek the approval and validation of people. Sure they can be cool, but I don’t thirst for them. Only my approval matters. Only my ok matters. And only my handclap matters. I don’t ever do something I don’t want to regardless of how obligated people might think I am to do them. This is my life. I’m wholeheartedly proud of me and all I’ve done and am more proud of and in love with who I’m becoming. This is me, this is my purpose. You’ll know you’re working in your purpose when it no longer feels like you’re betraying yourself. I don’t do that to myself no more and I don’t tone myself down for anyone. 



How many times can people really say they are proud of themselves is my question?? I’m here to tell you that all that isn’t something you need from others. And as much as you’ve been trained to think that it’s arrogant to be the shit to you and be unapologetic, I’m here to tell you that that is a prerequisite to creating happiness. People will always have opinions on you and how it is you must live your life and if you allow yourself to follow that, you’ll live your whole life tryna impress people nut never yourself and you’ll die. I’m here to tell you that you must learn to be happy with you and your life. You won’t make everyone happy because of that but honestly fuck em. There will also be this thing they call haters but man, I don’t know what they look like but who cares. If people hate me now, I guess they’ll hate me because I’m happy and because I live an epic life ey hahaha. 

I know me. I know my shit. I got the JUICE and I don’t chase things anymore, they chase me. I know now that I’ll receive all that I want if I’m patient enough because I’ll receive them when I’m ready to receive them. My job is to be clear and concise about what I want, work on me and simply wait. Easy… so ya.

Be proud of you… That’s all I’ll say today… Boooom!



One day it just clicks… You realize what’s important and what isn’t. You learn to care less about what other people think of you and more about what you think of yourself. You realize how far you’ve come and you remember when you thought things were such a mess that they’d never recover. And then you smile. You smile because you are truly proud of yourself and the person you’ve fought to become.

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